Kids napping, too much online surfing already, sunshine, weekend.
It’s time to write. I have a dissertation proposal to be working on. It’s a big deal with an intense timeline. I have a psychological report I need to be finishing up (first draft). These are important things.
Yet, I just can’t shift and write at this moment.
If it doesn’t feel different, you’re not changing it. That’s my saying. Mantra. It helps.
But right now, well, at all these moments of change, it’s just really hard. Where do I start? Can I type sentences, making paragraphs, and be ok if they’re not perfect right now? Not having them written down is taking up enormous amounts of energy away from me every day this is still on my plate.
I’m catching up in lots of other areas of life, so it seems I have this urge to always have something keeping me anchored in a restrictive way.
So, I will not turn off the music. I will go downstairs and see what my wife is up to. I will look at my beautiful boys sleeping in their rooms.
It looks like this moment was too hard to change.
